Senses Are Deceiving At Times.....

Girls have a stronger six sense compared to guys. Girls tend to be very sensitive to the surroundings and can be very 'perasan'at times. I know i was. Sometimes I can be very 'perasan' and this very feelings gave me the wrong message.

I once thought that I can trust and have faith in my senses, not our hearing and visual senses. Something more than that-emotional feelings. However my senses definately proves me wrong. After so many years thinking tht my feelings is right. The other person should felt the same, I THOUGHT. I told quite a number of my close friends abt that and some were surprised. They asked me for the rational reasons behind it. I didnt know the answer at that time and now at the present momment, the answer for the question is still a mystery to me. No I told myself. I wont strain my brain to figure it out because i have already lost interest in the very person.

After many years of delusions, it has finally come to and end. Although it hurts at the very beginning but i believed that time will take its place and heals the wound. I am glad that i found out the truth so that i can put an end for all the struggling, ups and downs of my emotional.

Every clouds has its silver lining. Yesterday is a hisotry, today is the present and tomorrow's antother day.

An Enduring, Long Week

This week has been a very long and tired week. There is not much of physically wear out but instead there is a lot of emotions ups and downs. At this very momment when I am writing this, deep down i miss my school friends badly and Alina. The world out there sometimes i think is wide, hostile and so realistic.

It all started out with this weird guy in my batch. He was extremely weird this week. He came in class late for three of our lessons and have a very grand entrance. What do I mean by grand entrance. He will hop into the class and make some background musics himself. I am now seriously keeping a safe distance from him. He seemed mentally challenged. On friday, I had Malaysian Studies. I was waiting for the lift at the ground floor with my friend. Then we saw him waliking towards our direction. Immediately, we hurried ourselves to the stairs walked one floor up. Oh my god!!! On the way up, I saw him at the stairscase entrance. He stared up and said " I am following your!!" My friend and I grabbed our bags tightly and stared running to the another end and used the stairs at that end to run all the way down. You must be thinking I am crazy but trust me, he was slapped and puched by our seniors because of his weird and not normal antics. Better be safe than sorry if what pop up in my mind every time i meet him.

The second unhappy and disturbing incident was being friends with a math genius. He is 16 and came from Hong KOng. He has a vary strong foundation in Mathematics. I felt extremely small, timid like a dwarf when I asked for his help or when we have group sudies. I just lost all my confidence when i am around him. He too used harsh words at times. This is the first time someone make me loss faith in myself. Thank god i still practice positive thinking or I would break down emotionally and ring Alina up. Haha, glad that did not happen.

Yah, so things are starting to heat up now. It is like what our parents always say to us: The world out there is vast and there is all types of ppl from all walks of life. Some treat you sincerely and some may just want to get something for you. Whatever it is, I guess it is time for me to start learning to be street wise rather than just book wise, step out from my comfort zone.

Hope everybody still be their very self and not let the so ever realistic society to tarnished you.

2 in 1 PARTY!!

Here it goes...............................

Former Borwnies (just not wearing brown that day)


ON last saturday, brownies librarians gathered up to meet with big huey wen as she will be leaving to Austrialia to further her studies at Monash University. Godd luck to her!! WE were supposed to meet up at 12 noon. However I was the late one to make a 'great entrance'. We had lunch at Fish and Co. The servings there are very delicious and not so costly as Bubba Grump. Hui Ling made a good choice for our lunch destination.

Black, REd, White.......nice colour combination

There was sort of a surprise for Fioney too! Fion and I went to the ladies while Jia and Hui Ling went to fetch her cake at Secret Recipe. Jia and Hui ling took quite long and that caused fion to be suspicious about their whereabouts. Haha, fion was pretty happy to have us celebrate for her. Happy Birthday Fioney!!

Haha, Huey Wen ( always never fail no tease and joke with me)

Don we just look STUNING???

Glad everyone got to meet up that day!! So long didnt chit chat with Fion, Jia Min and Hui Ling. Of course havent see Heuy wen for quite a while. Take care guys!!

Cold then Hot

Hi!!

Let me blog about my holiday at Cameron Highland and Pangkor Island. My family and I went there at the end of December. It was during the christmas week!! We stayed at the Strawberry Park. It was a perfect spot for my family to take a break from the hustle and bustle of the city life. No pollution, no heavy traffic and best of all away from the hectic lifestyle with lots of pressure. The room was great and it has a very luxurious bathroom. Love it!!! The best part was the room was facing the green mountains and hills. The scenary was picturesque with clouds in all kinds of shapes. So relaxing and cooling. I was able to feel the cool breeze on my face the very momment i took a step out on the balcony. Felt great to breathe in fresh air into my lungs.

Taking Pictures with the green view

The only places we could visit was the tea plantations and flower nusery. Of course while having a leisure walk in the gardens, my subblings and I embraced ourselves with the tasty,yummy strawberries dipped with layers of hot chocalate. We kept on enjoying ourselves with scenic view with bites of strawberries. Maybe thats the reason i gained weight due to the chocalate coating. Not forgetting my family was too busy taking pictures with unique, rare yet mesmerising flowers for memories.

Me and the flowers

Love Birds

I Love her a lot, my grandmother

Sisters!!!

The weather was even colder during the nights than in the mornings. Therefore a hot bowl of soup or steamboat would be the best meal for night because I seriously did feel warmer after eating steamboat that night. The hot soup running down the throat to the stomach felt so great. A simple meal of steamboat was finger-licking good that night. Dont know why? Maybe because I was cold and hungry. On Christmas night, my father brought my siblings to the lounge to have a feel of the christmas mood. The lady singer voice was melodious and powerful especially when she sang my favourite song- "Yesterday Once More" by the Carpenters. My father was so romantic that he asked my mum to have a dance on the dance floor when some romantic songs were sang.

We spent three days two nights on CAmeron Highlands. Then we headed to our next destinations, Pangkot Island. My brother and sister anticipated this trip so dearly because they have not been to Pangkor before. The cant wait to soak themselves in the sea water and run along the clear sandy beach. The ferry ride was nothing much. We just stood on the top of the ferry chit-chatting away with my sis. Of course we did take a few snaps because there was nothing much to do.

Posing on the ferry.

We lived at a resort. Most of our time were spent on the beach. We just love going there in the morning to build sand castle. As there was no transport convenience, so we usually walked our way to the beach in the mornng and the evening. I played catching with my brother and sister. We too builded sand castle together and did a few jumpshots. At fitst the jumpshots were not successful but things did turn out for the better.

Yeah! We did a jumpshot.......

My brother , sister and I too builded our very own sandcastle and compete with one another. My brother was so engrossed into it. He walked all over the beach searching suitable stuffs as decoratives for his sandcastle. So sad he did not manage to find many stuffs by the way. I love mine. It is not exactly a sandcastle but I put a lot of hardwork. (haha)

My sister master piece

My master piece

I have fun at both places. It was just there was a little problem packing clothes at the begining because one place needs thick cothes for the cold weather whereas another destination is hot and would be best to dress in thin fabric. Imagine how big was our luggage bags for this holiday.Haha, the back of my car was so packed with few big luggage bags. My dad was sort of ranting at us when he saw our bags. Sorry daddy!!

Ya, I visited Kelleigh' Castle on the way to Pangkor. We took a few shots and walked around in the castle. It has a lot of secrets pathways and hidden rooms. I guessed rich people in the early days were just so protective and concern about their safety that they had secret pathways for emergency escape. I dont think we can find all these stuff in a modern house.

Front view of the castle

So sorry I hardly update my post. Will do it more often. :)

College days are just so different with what I had in mind. I always thought college is cool, flexible study hours, do not have the need to wear the standard uniform and have the freedom to do stuff I like. My god! It is a far cry from reality. College has no fix time for class. My classes end at different time everyday. So sometimes i am only left with the night hours to do my stuff. To make things worse, I still need to wake up as early as i used to last year to avoid the jam. The biggest headache is have to figure out what looks best on me every morning. It is not easy. Picking and matching clothes was nevr easy for me. Haha.........

I better stop ranting. Look on the bright side. There is a part of me who really enjoy college. I always anticipated the start of college because i love the subjects and my friends there. Very funny every lunch break. Always feel my day with laughters. Not forgetting there are also piles of homework. I guess i am starting to enjoy college after all. Love it and will enjoy it to the fulliest.

Ya, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to everyone! Have a prosperous 2009!

New Environment

One week of college soon come to a two days break. Oh my god, going to college is so different and far from what i had expected! Firstly, I don study throughout the whole year with the same classmates. My classmates varies according to the subjects I am taking. So most of the time I hang out with different people. However i got to know many people and started to forge friendship by exchanging each other hp nunbers. We even started smsing each other about our homework. Not bad for a start, I guess. However that wasn't what happen on Tuesday. I had two classes that day and a lunch break in the middle. What i feared most happend on the very day. I got no one to sit with at the cafeteria. As my class only have three students that day, i really don't know them and didnt know where had they gone to. I was so scared, lostand felt like a fish out of water the very moment i took a step into the cafeteria. The cafeteria was flooded with seniors whom i don't really know.

I guessed fear got the better side of me. So i left cafeteria and went to the library. I don know what to do and thus rang Alina. I told her the whole story and seeked for her console to help me to regain my confidence. Even though it was just a 10 minutes talk, i really felt better after that. Honestly! However things turned out for the better. Now i can get along better with them. So happy!

I believe I need to summon all my guts to start this new chapter of life and walk the untrodden path. Good luck to the others too.

The Magic of Friendship

Here is a cliched saying about FRIENDSHIP:

there are big ships and small ships, but the best of all is friendship.

Proof of FRIENDSHIP

In our journey of self-discovery, we need friends whether good or bad, because no man is an island in this world. I seriously believed that I cannot live a day without being surrounded by friends. Good friends will be there when we need them and bad friends too. 'Bad' friends may exist for a reason: to make us appreciate our best friends more!!!!!!

True friends make everyday worth living and every trouble worth overcoming. At the end of of a long day, when we feel like we are on our last legs, our firends are there to support and remind us to keep on pressing. It is said that those who chatter to you will chatter about you, but real friends will not stab you in in the back. They will tell us off straightaway if we go wrong, True, sometime it might be harsh but real friends speak painful truth through loving ank kind words for our benefits.

I am now going to say goodbye and bid farewell to all those beautiful, exciting and fun-filled days of my life and start a whole new life again at college. I am most definately going to miss school and the feeling of wearing school uniform, sitting in a classroom and learn. Perhaps one of the most important aspects of school life is friendship. Throughout my five years of eventful school life, I have forged many wonderful bonds of friendship that will last forever even distance takes its place to seperate us apart.

The longest and strongest bond of frinedship was forged with Alina. I have actually known Alina since i was in standard 5. We happened to be studying in the same class and something occured that caused us to be friends till this very day. I was excited to know that i will be going to the same school as Alina. In the early days of our school year, we can really chit-chat about anything, boys, teachers, studies, personal problems and etc. I can still rekindle those times we will be giggling ourselves away whenever we talked about boys. Really funny and childish of us but i kind of miss those times when i am writing this. Everything that were left are just memories to be remembered from time to time. However i still love her and hope i can still tell her everything even though we are not studying in the same college anymore. She was always by my side through thick and thin before and i strongly she still will after this.

Best Friend Forever!!!

Of course there are still other friends out there that always stood by me even though a few of them like to tease me, example Mr Mun Wai (hope is is not offensive). I really got to know him only through KRS and i think all those emo night and camps got us really closed. He is actually one of the only few close guy friends i have. He is really funny and very good loooking too (haha). Of course he is serious at work. He is also got at motivating us during the emo night with his bold manly voice.

Huie-wen is the fair lady that loves to smile and laugh. She is very kind and caring. I am sorry that I called to you and complain about the outing. So sorry you have to hear my wining. Although she looks smart and brillant, she is kinda lame deep down. She cracked a lame joke about 'bottomless' at chilis today. Not funny but still drive us all laughing.

I wont forget about Qing Xian. She is a very innocent girl and has a very big heart for everyone. She is kinda blurr at times but that is just the real her and i like her the way she is. We always laugh when we talked about our secrets and share to one another about the happenings around us.Keep up the good work and stay smilling always....

What about Chee hung?? He is my fencing buddy. I got to know him through fencing. I guess that was how our frindship started. He is very quiet, does not speech much and always silent when we are having our emo night but he is very very kind and outgoing deep down. He is also a 'ro' at fencing game. Remember to call me if you do go for sparing with anyone.

Siew Ming................ Really sweet and dressed very fashionable, following the trend of dressing. Haha, her text message to me during christmas day really touched me!!! I really enjoyed sitting with her when i was in form 1 Daisi. She gave me the impression that she is a smart girl back then. Gald i met you.....

Classmates from primary school

FRIENDS I came to known over the years!!

Thanks to all my friends. Hanging out with your is the best days in my life. I will always cherish those memorable, exhilarating, colurful days of my life. Your left footprints in my memories that will never be erase. Good luck to everyone because college is starting soon and remember to keep in touch!!!

Love ya...................