I decided to start blogging again since I would be unfolding a new chapter in my life!!!
I have been lazy to blog recently. So this will be my very first post for 2010 and sadly it is taking a pessimistic start. Well as 2010 approaches, everyone set their resolutions and have sanguine expectations for their near future. In the contrary, I was uncertain of how would 2010 turned out for me, how would it unfolds itself. Throughout the entire the 2009, I keep telling myself over and over again that I have to give my very best because I do not want a single tinge of regret and remorse feeling to eat me from within. I do not want to look back and ask myself the dreadful question why didnt I do that or what will happen if I did do that. All kind of thoughts will then popping up in my mind picturing the change in my life if I did do that, make that choice.
Haih, life is mystifying cryptic with unsolved riddles and puzzles, making me feel ambivalence. Every choice i made, I am actually solving a maze that is mind churning, exhausting, elevating and etc.
My father has been kind of pushy recently. If I sit in front of the tv for more than one hour, he would give me the stern stare and asked me the 'simple' question: "What are you doing with your life wasting your time in front of the square box?" It just a straight forward question but then I have to pause for seconds to ponder upon it. He does it like almost everyday until I got so fed up and just have the urge to act rebellious, do the opposite of what he want me to!!! Yes, I do slacked at times and I do not deny it but can he stop reminding me of slackness. I am not saying that I dislike what my father is doing as I know he is concern about me but the pressure is really building up.
As A2 creeps up closer and my AS result being released on next monday, I felt even more insecure. I just do not what to expect. Being too optimistic can be a bad thing as i may be hit with a greater disappointment, let down but if I choose to be pessimistic, then I have to spend the entire week being solemn and doleful.
Therefore, the optimum solution is to be modest, take the middle path and save myself from enduring two extreme emotions. :)
Great idea py.
Haih, life is mystifying cryptic with unsolved riddles and puzzles, making me feel ambivalence. Every choice i made, I am actually solving a maze that is mind churning, exhausting, elevating and etc.
My father has been kind of pushy recently. If I sit in front of the tv for more than one hour, he would give me the stern stare and asked me the 'simple' question: "What are you doing with your life wasting your time in front of the square box?" It just a straight forward question but then I have to pause for seconds to ponder upon it. He does it like almost everyday until I got so fed up and just have the urge to act rebellious, do the opposite of what he want me to!!! Yes, I do slacked at times and I do not deny it but can he stop reminding me of slackness. I am not saying that I dislike what my father is doing as I know he is concern about me but the pressure is really building up.
As A2 creeps up closer and my AS result being released on next monday, I felt even more insecure. I just do not what to expect. Being too optimistic can be a bad thing as i may be hit with a greater disappointment, let down but if I choose to be pessimistic, then I have to spend the entire week being solemn and doleful.
Therefore, the optimum solution is to be modest, take the middle path and save myself from enduring two extreme emotions. :)
Great idea py.
It was a sigh of relief after handing up my last paper. The entire exam month was torturing, stretching for 5 weeks long. Yeah, now i declared myself free from restraints, books and exams. the week after my exams was packed with activities. I hang out with my bosoms friends, went shopping at Sungei Wang, be a couch potato and read books that was on my list.
On Wednesday night, my family and I attended an Art Expo Preview Night at MATRADE. We got invited to attend the opening ceremony by some Datuk. There were many art works by renowned artists around the world, actually most of the participating artists are from Asia. My sister and I were basically just lingering around the gallery with a wine glass in my hand. We will just stop at some random booth, try to figure out what is the artist trying expressing through the painting before we look at its title. Then, we will just laughed at each other ludicrous guessing. Some paintings are conspicuous with its expressions while some are just merely brain teasing. However, we did manage to guess a few correctly. On the other hand, my father did enjoy himself. He just has the flair and appreciation for exquisite arts.
Thursday was all girls day out for my family except my brother tag along. All of us except my father went for a shopping spree at Sungei Wang, Bukit Bintang Plaza and Lot10. it was a whole new shopping experience for me. With strong shopping intuition, I literally shop till I drop k. I cannot resist the temptation to pamper myself with clothes and shoes. There is a wide range of fashion at an affordable price. There were shops selling all its clothes at a flat price of RM 25 and that just lure me to buy even more. But seriously you have to have an eye for fashion because some of the clothes are seriously 'lala' . Some of the clothes on sale are just not suitable to wear to college or anywhere else besides Sungei Wang. The ladies there dress exotically with thick, gothic makeups. So, my sister and I were happily picking clothes off the shelves while my dear mummy was paying for it. Thank you mummy!!
On Friday, I hang out with Alina and Huei-wen. The initial plan was ice-skating in Sunway Pyramid but not many can turn up so there is a change in plan. it was very sweet and nice of Alina and Huei-wen to come down all the way to Sunway Pyramid so that I join them because Sunway is nearer to my house. Strolling in Sunway aroused a different feeling as we were unfamiliar with the place and shops. We had lunch at Kim Gary and took the opportunity to catch up with one another. Hw and I were exchanging thoughts on modern ladies strategies and approaches to initiate a decision and move. Haha, it was pretty entertaining. Later, we watched 2012. The TGV cinema in Sunway is way much more comfortable than One Utama one. It was full house. The movie was intriguing, triggering my emotions and making me to think what will I do if I was actually in their shoes. Will I repent for my thoughtless acts or finds ways to survive? I think all three of us did shed tears when humanity was put to test. In such predicament, human reveal their true nature. Some will have a magnanimous heart to save mankind while some are just more concern about their own well beings. One thing for sure, money can buy you a ticket to stay alive.
Have a safe and enjoyable trip to Shanghai Alina!!!!!
They are always there for me.
Then here comes the long awaited A-Levels Night on Saturday. My college A-Levels Night was held at PJ Hilton and the theme was Masquerade. Masquerade gives me a mystifying feeling and impression that a princess always meet her prince in a masquerade ball. Haha, i am too absorb with fairy tales ideas. It was a night to paint the town red for us as we just finished our AS exams.
Besides the scrumptious buffet, i was practically busy camwhorring and chit chatting. A few of my friends put the effort to get their hair and makeups done at salon. I was feeling lethargic to do so I looked simple and austere. Everyone was charming including the guys.
Wan Ping
Gurpreet-she was taken for the night
My maths lecturer, Mr Eng - debonair
I won the second prize for luck draw.
2009 Batch
Group picture- bella (on the left) is a great dancer
Before the event was concluded, we had an open floor dance. Initially everyone was shy and strongly glued to their seats. As they blast the music and dimmed the lights, the night gone wild!! We whole group of girls were soon on the dance floor jiving our way with the rhythm of the music. It felt like clubbing to me!!! The audacious part was that the Head of A-Level Deparment was seated in the table right in front of the dance floor. The students were dancing while lecturers and invited guests were the audience. I think they craved to dance like us as well.
I did had a whale of time!! All too soon it comes to and end. Tomorrow, my classes for semester 3 will begin. I have class from 9am to 6.30pm on Monday. Long hours of absorbing and digesting imparted knowledge again So much about celebrating the freedom attained after exams. Its time to divert my attention back to my studies.
Adigos then
On Wednesday night, my family and I attended an Art Expo Preview Night at MATRADE. We got invited to attend the opening ceremony by some Datuk. There were many art works by renowned artists around the world, actually most of the participating artists are from Asia. My sister and I were basically just lingering around the gallery with a wine glass in my hand. We will just stop at some random booth, try to figure out what is the artist trying expressing through the painting before we look at its title. Then, we will just laughed at each other ludicrous guessing. Some paintings are conspicuous with its expressions while some are just merely brain teasing. However, we did manage to guess a few correctly. On the other hand, my father did enjoy himself. He just has the flair and appreciation for exquisite arts.
Thursday was all girls day out for my family except my brother tag along. All of us except my father went for a shopping spree at Sungei Wang, Bukit Bintang Plaza and Lot10. it was a whole new shopping experience for me. With strong shopping intuition, I literally shop till I drop k. I cannot resist the temptation to pamper myself with clothes and shoes. There is a wide range of fashion at an affordable price. There were shops selling all its clothes at a flat price of RM 25 and that just lure me to buy even more. But seriously you have to have an eye for fashion because some of the clothes are seriously 'lala' . Some of the clothes on sale are just not suitable to wear to college or anywhere else besides Sungei Wang. The ladies there dress exotically with thick, gothic makeups. So, my sister and I were happily picking clothes off the shelves while my dear mummy was paying for it. Thank you mummy!!
On Friday, I hang out with Alina and Huei-wen. The initial plan was ice-skating in Sunway Pyramid but not many can turn up so there is a change in plan. it was very sweet and nice of Alina and Huei-wen to come down all the way to Sunway Pyramid so that I join them because Sunway is nearer to my house. Strolling in Sunway aroused a different feeling as we were unfamiliar with the place and shops. We had lunch at Kim Gary and took the opportunity to catch up with one another. Hw and I were exchanging thoughts on modern ladies strategies and approaches to initiate a decision and move. Haha, it was pretty entertaining. Later, we watched 2012. The TGV cinema in Sunway is way much more comfortable than One Utama one. It was full house. The movie was intriguing, triggering my emotions and making me to think what will I do if I was actually in their shoes. Will I repent for my thoughtless acts or finds ways to survive? I think all three of us did shed tears when humanity was put to test. In such predicament, human reveal their true nature. Some will have a magnanimous heart to save mankind while some are just more concern about their own well beings. One thing for sure, money can buy you a ticket to stay alive.
Have a safe and enjoyable trip to Shanghai Alina!!!!!
They are always there for me.
Then here comes the long awaited A-Levels Night on Saturday. My college A-Levels Night was held at PJ Hilton and the theme was Masquerade. Masquerade gives me a mystifying feeling and impression that a princess always meet her prince in a masquerade ball. Haha, i am too absorb with fairy tales ideas. It was a night to paint the town red for us as we just finished our AS exams.
Besides the scrumptious buffet, i was practically busy camwhorring and chit chatting. A few of my friends put the effort to get their hair and makeups done at salon. I was feeling lethargic to do so I looked simple and austere. Everyone was charming including the guys.
Wan Ping
Gurpreet-she was taken for the night
My maths lecturer, Mr Eng - debonairThis is seriously hilarious. A wedding was going on as well at the ballroom next to us. There were flows of people at the entire floor. Some of the guests of the wedding regarded Mr Eng as a Hotel attendant ask him direction the ladies, registration counter and others. He was busy showing guests their way around the hotel and we the students were having a good laugh at him. I think the bow tie is the cause. Bow tie is part of a formal wear but bow tie on him totally delivered the wrong message.
I won the second prize for luck draw.
Lucky me I won the second prize for lucky draw. I was taking a sip of the my drink when my name was called unexpectedly. Thank god the drink did not spill. Guess what was the prize.............................its a toaster.
2009 Batch
Group picture- bella (on the left) is a great dancer
Before the event was concluded, we had an open floor dance. Initially everyone was shy and strongly glued to their seats. As they blast the music and dimmed the lights, the night gone wild!! We whole group of girls were soon on the dance floor jiving our way with the rhythm of the music. It felt like clubbing to me!!! The audacious part was that the Head of A-Level Deparment was seated in the table right in front of the dance floor. The students were dancing while lecturers and invited guests were the audience. I think they craved to dance like us as well.
I did had a whale of time!! All too soon it comes to and end. Tomorrow, my classes for semester 3 will begin. I have class from 9am to 6.30pm on Monday. Long hours of absorbing and digesting imparted knowledge again So much about celebrating the freedom attained after exams. Its time to divert my attention back to my studies.
Adigos then
Today was an arduous day both mentally and physically. Everything seemed so wrong since beginning of day. It was as though i got down on the wrong side of the bed. Ahhhhh!!
A series of unfortunate events unfold after I found out that I forgotten to bring my examination docket. Without the docket, I am not allowed to enter the examination hall. I only realised my careless act at around 8.40am when my economics paper was at 9.30am. My heart stopped beating and I stunted like for a few seconds before regained consciousness. I immediately call the adminstrator and informed her about my current predicament. Thank god I have the adminstrator mobile number. Its always good to get to know those office staffs. So, at around 9.15pm, I managed to get a copy of the docket and rushed my way to the exam hall.
I was panting when I reached the hall. I was so dissapointed when I flipped open the exam paper. The data response section was ok, but the essay part was not direct at all. My jaw droped after reading through the essay choices. It was like getting a smack in the face. My mood was sort of distorted then. Then, next was statistic paper. I just do not know what else more to said about it. Overall, the paper was ok but i was feeling kinda blue when i was sitting for the paper.
I was pretty sombre when I reached home. Lots of thoughts were popping in my minds and I do not why but I just had this bad feeling that things are not going to be alright. I am not sure of my future and where am I going to be in few years time. I felt that i was being let down many times and may be its time for me to surrender and just accept life as it is. The entire evening I was being pessimistic. Maybe i shoudnt even have 'big' dreams. I should 'mengukur baju di badan sendiri'. I should be contented with what I have.
Life is not a bed or roses and I am well aware of that. However its just so hard to put such outlook to practice.
I don know. Everything seems ambiguous to me now. Maybe its just a dilema I am facing with myself or something more than that.
A series of unfortunate events unfold after I found out that I forgotten to bring my examination docket. Without the docket, I am not allowed to enter the examination hall. I only realised my careless act at around 8.40am when my economics paper was at 9.30am. My heart stopped beating and I stunted like for a few seconds before regained consciousness. I immediately call the adminstrator and informed her about my current predicament. Thank god I have the adminstrator mobile number. Its always good to get to know those office staffs. So, at around 9.15pm, I managed to get a copy of the docket and rushed my way to the exam hall.
I was panting when I reached the hall. I was so dissapointed when I flipped open the exam paper. The data response section was ok, but the essay part was not direct at all. My jaw droped after reading through the essay choices. It was like getting a smack in the face. My mood was sort of distorted then. Then, next was statistic paper. I just do not know what else more to said about it. Overall, the paper was ok but i was feeling kinda blue when i was sitting for the paper.
I was pretty sombre when I reached home. Lots of thoughts were popping in my minds and I do not why but I just had this bad feeling that things are not going to be alright. I am not sure of my future and where am I going to be in few years time. I felt that i was being let down many times and may be its time for me to surrender and just accept life as it is. The entire evening I was being pessimistic. Maybe i shoudnt even have 'big' dreams. I should 'mengukur baju di badan sendiri'. I should be contented with what I have.
Life is not a bed or roses and I am well aware of that. However its just so hard to put such outlook to practice.
I don know. Everything seems ambiguous to me now. Maybe its just a dilema I am facing with myself or something more than that.
This feeling is so unbearable. Oh my god, I wasted most of this holidays seated in front of the BLACK BOX. I should have been working my ass out by instead I choose to be a couch potato. I always comfort myself saying that my act of watching tv is a way to distress my mind and that is such a big lie to myself in every single way.
I better put a stop to the hideous lie I put up with to explain my shameful act. All of that drama and conflicts within myself have to come to an end at this very moment.
I should spend my one week holidays with no regret!!!
I better put a stop to the hideous lie I put up with to explain my shameful act. All of that drama and conflicts within myself have to come to an end at this very moment.
I should spend my one week holidays with no regret!!!
A big group pics with the lecturers as well.
A-Level Club organized a visit to an orphanage home is Bangsar last Saturday. I was excited about this trip but felt inferior too because this is my first time visiting an orphanage home, interacting with them personally. Lots of thoughts were in my mind the night before the visit as I am trying to figure out how should I react with them to avoid them feeling being sympathize and vulnerable. I just did not want the children or teenagers there to feel unfortunate just because i am way much more fortunate than them. My mission there is to bring cheer and joy to their day.
Cheese!And I did complete my mission with my head held high. The entire A-levels students and the children were having a whale of time. We introduced ourselves to them and then we all sang very meaningful song "Sing" by the carpenters. I got to carry young kids as young as 1 years old.
The children there are very different in a good way from the usual children I come across. When you stare into their eyes, it reflects their innocent but also their depth of understanding. There is no sound of tears throughout the entire morning. You wont get the annoying high pitch cries and hysteric screams They are so understanding for their age to compromise. They queeued up when we were distributing party packs, the young ones would politely ask for our help to open their party packs instead of them forcing it to open themselves spilling the foods all over the floor. Its just such a different scence there. Even though they were all smiles the entire day, they do have untold stories behind their closet. Once you listen to their overwhelming, thrilling, ups and downs life story, you will come to a realisation that we just pale in comparission mentally.
Here is a real life story:
This little girl is cute, adorable in every way but she has not open her mouth to say a word since her two years stay in the orphanage. Her name is Nancy and she had a harsh early childhood that led her to stay silence ever since. Nobody know why. All she seek is just attention and love from anyone. She love to be hugged and cuddled in arms and thats is the world to her. This is the power of 'HUG'. When she gets familiar with you, she will attach to you and cling on you for the entire day. Thats is her way of marking her teritory as she is proud to announce that you belong to her. You may not understand but since the children don get personal attention as we do in our homes, having someone to carry them, hug them and cuddle them is what they desire badly.
This trip is a wake-up call for me in everyway. I am so ashame of myself complaining not having this and that, and not looking like miss wannabee. Sometimes I tend to be oblivious towards my surrounding in this paper chase life. I just aim for achievements after achievements and lost the very basic sense of human touch which have kept us all intact and close. All those rants are so immature now after a day spent with the orphans. I should be feeling gratitude for being blissful in life.
Appreciate life as there will never be tomorrow.
The children sang us a farewell song before we left.
I am so sorry for leaving my blog idle for quite a while. Thanks Mun Wai and Siew Ming to be loyal fans of my blog.
The most happening event in my life for the past 1 month is that..................
The most happening event in my life for the past 1 month is that..................
I got my LICENSE already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can drive finally!!
I can drive finally!!
I was like on clouds nine when i found out i passed. I just wanted to scream my lungs out at the driving circuit. I was grinning from ears to ears ever since then till I reached home. Haha, the tangled web of emotions is just hard to put into words to be exact. I sigh a great relief after I managed to do the three pointer. It seems to me passing a driving test is not as easy as one may thinks.
I failed when i sat for it the first time. I was so excited, all ready for the driving test. My lucky number was 8 and was among the few first to do 'bukit'. It was not a pleasant scene to those before me being failed, being asked to get down of the car and proceed to 'jalan raya'. So basically, the anxiety was begining to build up within me. Neverhteless, Lady Luck was not shining at me that day. I managed to park the tyre inside the yellow box but when my car went backwards more than 50% when I let go the handbrake. Poor body coordination and being too nervous were the culprit for my failed drving test. However, I did managed to pass jalan raya. Yeah for me for at least managed to get one part right. Haha, comforting myself.
I cant wait to lay my hand on the steering wheel when I get my P license next week. I can go for outing more frquently then.
Next upcoming event is I am having my A-Levels trials next week. Therefrore, this week was hectic with lots of extra tutorial classes. I just had replacement classes today from 9am to 4pm. My stress level is basically rising now so wish me good luck.
Thats basically it. A brief and conscise description of happenings for last month. Nothing much happened besides the boring, mundane daily routine.
Good luck to others too who are about to sit for trials and Happy Holiday to those on term break!!!
Take care
I cant wait to lay my hand on the steering wheel when I get my P license next week. I can go for outing more frquently then.
Next upcoming event is I am having my A-Levels trials next week. Therefrore, this week was hectic with lots of extra tutorial classes. I just had replacement classes today from 9am to 4pm. My stress level is basically rising now so wish me good luck.
Thats basically it. A brief and conscise description of happenings for last month. Nothing much happened besides the boring, mundane daily routine.
Good luck to others too who are about to sit for trials and Happy Holiday to those on term break!!!
Take care
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